April

In April we went to Disney World with Rod family.

We had such a wonderful time.

The kids were so fun and just wanted to run and run.

We stayed up way to late and woke up way to early.

Ruby was such a dream baby girl.

She just slept and ate and went wherever we took her.

 Hank found his heaven.

 We ate in the Beast Castle.

And of course of the three dinning rooms we were in the scary west wing.

The kids were nervous and scared the whole time.

But the food was so delicious.

 After getting of a ride one night it poured down rain.

It was already about 10 pm and instead of trying to wait out the down pour we decided to run through it.

 Meggie and Ruby stayed dry and unharmed from the rain.  

Ruby actually slept the whole time.

 Drew and Ruby

 This boy makes me laugh.

 Ruby had started eating a lot more table food and making a HUGE mess.

She was so mad and didn't want her picture taken.

She wanted out!

 She also found the pantry as a fun place to play.

 We were in Disney World for Easter.

Then I left out of the town a few days after we arrived home for my Unlce Rogers funeral.

And then Rod had to work in St. George the next weekend so....

We never got Easter pictures.  

So here are our delayed Easter pics.

Kate 

 Meg

 Hank

 Sweet Baby Ruby did not want Easter pictures.

 Baby Girl can't just sit in her highchair.  

She has to tuck in her legs like this.

She also tries to stand up the whole time I am trying to feed her.

 Meggie lost her first two teeth at the same time.

March

Ruby {9} Months

I love this happy girl.

The girls had a dance competition in St. George

The weather was so wonderful and warm.

 Andy said he couldn't believe he was just sitting here and not thinking about anything.

 Kate performed in her  first solo competition.

She did such a great job.

She scored a Ruby and second place.

 Meggie and Kate performed on Saturday with their dance groups.

They both did so great.

I love watching my girls dance.

 Ruby started pulling herself up onto things.

{stop growing up baby girl}

February

I am again so far behind so I am going to do a large overview of the past few months.

On January 6th Ruby broke her first tooth.

The week of the 13th she started sitting and raising to her hand and knees.

February 3rd she started crawling.

February 13th she started to clap

Ruby @ 8 months

 We had a fun and yummy fondue Valentines Dinner.

Prince Hank

 Princess Meg

 Princess Kate

 Princess Ruby and Princess Adrienne

 Meggie turned {6} years old.

She had a fun fairy princess tea party with her little friends.

She is such a fun little girl.

Meggie loves her sister Ruby.  (sometimes a little too much)

She loves steak, shrimp, artichokes and tomatoes.

She also LOVES candy.

She is very sweet sensitive girl.

She loves school and had improved so much this year.

Although she loves school she DOES NOT want to do any homework.

She loves to be silly but does not like to be seen on camera.

I love you Meggie and so happy to have you in our life.

Christmas

We had an absolutely wonderful December.

The kids loved trimming the tree.

Ruby loved all the lights.

This sweet girl started to roll over from her tummy to her back and then her back to her tummy about a week later.

 this was the first time in many years with no crying kids and Santa.

 This was a best attempt for a picture in Christmas clothes.

 Christmas Eve we went sledding at Solider Hollow with Rod's family.

Ruby and I hung out in the warm lodge eating snacks and sipping hot cocoa.

Christmas Morning

I actually made the jammies this year.

Thanks Jeni for making them with me.

 

 Ruby finally woke up after all the presents were torn open.

 

Christmas was wonderful.

Yes, Ruby's pants are not on.

I just took her in jammies to my moms and the clothes she got for Christmas...the pants wouldn't even go past her knees.

She she spent a warm cozy Christmas in her jammies.

Ruby {6} months

Ruby 

6

months.

Oh I so love this girl.

Falling behind

I wrote the title for this post on 1/7/13.  I am finally going to just sit down and write.  I have really debating sharing this, because of many reasons.  I have this blog in the hopes that one day I will print all of the posts off and my children and family can look back.  Maybe laugh and cry but hopefully learn somethings and just enjoy reading the books. And if I can help my girls in anyway I would do it.  I have also debated making this a private or public post, but it has been on my mind a long time and I have just felt I needed to share.

In October, my feelings were hurt.  Nothing terrible was said just a response to a question in not the kindest answer.  Any other time I would probably have just shrugged it off.  But I couldn't. (Ruby was 4 months old and was just a joy!  I truly loved her.  Everything about her was wonderful.  She made the horrible pregnancy worth it...but not enough that I am doing it again.) My feelings were hurt.  On our drive home I told Rod of my feelings, but he did see or understand what was happening inside me.  Neither did I at that point.  I was so mad at Rod that he didn't seem to care.  I thought about it all night and the next morning when he left for work.  I lost it.  I didn't let him know how much him leaving was all of the sudden going to hurt inside.  I went to my room and just cried and cried and cried.  I called my mom at work and told her I was so sorry to be calling, but I was just so sad.  She called Jeni and Jeni came over.  Jeni and I sat and talked and then things started to come to my mind about the last 4 months.

I was rarely if ever getting out of my bed during the day.  I was never opening my windows.  I was feeding my children but I didn't care what they ate...and if you know me that is not the norm.  I got them something to eat and off to my bed again.  Ruby and I would just lay, nurse, lay and nurse all day.  I knew my children were needing me, but they enjoyed all the TV too.

Jeni finally asked me the question...Had I thought about hurting myself.  It was a weird feeling because all of the sudden it flashed to my mind.  Over the past few weeks I had a couple times thought of crashing my car.  And after driving my an accident wishing I was in that.  I NEEDED SOME HELP!  I finally called Rod and my dr.

I don't share this story for anyone to feel sorry for me.  I share this because it is so real.  I was so ashamed and guilty of the feelings I was having.  And after many months I have come to realize that I shouldn't be ashamed.  Even though it can be hard not too.  I want my girls to know that they should never be ashamed or feel guilty.  These feelings are horrible and it hurts but you can get help.  Most importantly turn to your Heavenly Father.  He will bless you and bless your family.  I am not always the best at this, but I do know he is there to help us and he will.  We just need to ask for help and guidance.